What do you do when you like someone so much, but they reject you to the point that it hurts? You move on. You guard your heart and promise yourself you won’t like anyone for a long time. But then after a while someone walks by and you can’t just not notice. You try to brush it off. Pfft they’re just a person. But somehow you’re drawn to this person. A while later you stop guarding your heart and fall for them. Of course when I fell for Xavier, somehow I kept liking him and I didn’t know why. Now I’m sitting in science class doing the work our teacher left us and I could feel Xavier kicking me in the back of my chair. I sighed and turned around.
“What?” I asked in irritation.
“Sophieeee, why are you doing work when we have a substitute it’s just a waste of time” Xavier told me.
“For the millionth time Xavier, it’s Sophia and I want to get this done so I can study the next lesson at home, why do you care anyways?” I questioned.
Xavier suddenly got up and leaned across his desk and plopped his head on my shoulder. I blushed and looked at him.
“I care because, you’re wasting all your time studying and none of your time to have fun..Live a little Sophie” he told me.
I sighed. Studying relaxed me, I was able to control it, there was always a definite answer.
“Well we’re still in school, are we not?” I pointed out.
Xavier sighed and buried his face more into my neck. I pushed his head away and he chuckled. I looked at him and scowled. He sat back down and went back to his seat. I looked back at him and rolled my eyes. I noticed his wavy black hair was messy and he was wearing a loose cardigan, that made him look tired…in a cute way. His tan skin made his grey eyes stand out. Xavier laid his head on his hand and stared back at me with a grin. His eyes were droopy which made me want to touch his hair. I sighed and looked back at my book. Xavier started playing with my hair. I didn’t know why he liked playing with my hair, it was light brown and straight. I guess I liked it that way, it kept order.
“Sophia, I can’t do this”
Xavier and I looked at Victoria. Victoria was a short and child-like girl with blonde hair and blue eyes. She and I met when the year started and she was failing miserably (still is) and she begged me to help her. Somehow we became close. I didn’t want to be friends with her at first, she took away my studying time. But I felt bad and helped her out. She ended up becoming the closest person to me. Other then Xavier.
“Why not?” Xavier asked while smirking. Victoria scowled and showed me the paper full of chemical equations, there were numbers everywhere, but none of them were right. I looked at Victoria and she looked like she was going to cry.
“This shit is so easy Victoria” Xavier said with a sigh. A lot of things pissed me off about Xavier, but the one thing that drove me crazy was the fact he didn’t need to study to be smart, he was just a genius. He didn’t cherish his gift like I would if I had it. He shrugged it off, he never felt the need to brag about his nineties that he didn’t have to try hard to get. After Xavier’s remark, Victoria teared up and crumpled up the paper. I glared at Xavier who looked guilty and sad that he hurt Victoria’s feelings. And then a small wrapped chocolate appeared on her desk. There was another reason why Xavier drove me crazy, he gave chocolates to anyone if they were sad. Even if he didn’t know them.
Lunch time was the time where I ate as fast as I could in the cafeteria and ran to spend the rest of lunch in the library. I sat with Victoria who was telling me about her blog and how she can’t wait for baseball game tomorrow, since her boyfriend was supposed to come and watch. Victoria’s boyfriend was in a different school. I was happy for them, they had met over the summer and have been in love ever since. All of a sudden, Victoria stopped talking and scowled. I turned to see why she was scowling. It turned out she was scowling at the group of snobby popular girls behind us. The main leader, Annie was strutting in the cafeteria holding hands with her boyfriend Haine. Annie had straight blonde hair and green eyes. She was wearing a pink floral dress with heels. Haine had the same clean brown hair and pale skin. They both looked like they came out of some highschool romantic movie. Everyone loved those two. The cheerleader with her quarterback boyfriend. After being in high school for two years, I looked like I didn’t deserve to even breathe the same air, but once upon a time I was Haine’s girlfriend and Annie’s best friend. Until I caught them sleeping with each other and broke up with both of them. And slowly I started focusing on studying and getting ready to leave high school as fast as I can. I lost all the popularity I had and dropped my position in the cheerleader squad. Strange isn’t it? What high school can do to you. And a year later, I was stuck with the wrath of Xavier and Victoria.
“I hate seeing those two,” Victoria groaned. I shrugged and focused on my tater tots.
All of a sudden the cafeteria was in an uproar and I looked back to see Haine holding Xavier by the collar of his t-shirt. Victoria and I walked closer to hear what was going on.
“Listen you twit, we had a deal” Haine yelled.
“I didn’t agree to the deal you shit.” Xavier spat back.
“So you’re going back on your promise?” Haine asked, gripping Xavier’s collar. Annie whispered something to Haine and they both looked at me. I took a step back.
“We made no promise, you asked me to get the answers and I told you I don’t have them” Xavier answered. It was comforting that even though Xavier was going to get beat up he still looked like he was winning the argument.
“Trying to look good in front of your girlfriend huh?”
Xavier smirked and kicked Haine in the stomach with his knee. While Haine bent down with a groan, Xavier kicked him to the floor. Although, Xavier was smart as hell, he didn’t know how to keep his temper. People looked at each other and some guys tried to hold Xavier back. Victoria and I ran to Xavier and before we could pull him away, Xavier yelled, “Well at least I don’t fuck her best friend and then have her change her whole life because the most important people to her screwed up. Don’t you fucking dare come near me or her or anyone again”. Victoria looked at Xavier admirably and I looked at Xavier and took a moment to realize they were talking about me. I blushed when all eyes were on me. And Xavier grabbed my hand.
“You can’t judge us, for what we did with Sophia, and anyways she chose to leave” Annie remarked. I raised my eyebrows. Annie always had a “good” reason and she always had the ability to blame other people. Even when I cried to her saying why she couldn’t have hooked up with someone else she told me, it wasn’t her fault he chose her over me. I never was able to stand up to her but I knew it was almost the end of the year and we had one more year a head of us.
“I’m much happier anyways without you guys,” I began while I looked at the whole group of cheerleaders and jocks. People around us were silent. They never expected me to talk.
“Oh with that prick and the dumbass blonde?” someone yelled.
“Funny how you guys pay attention to me, when I could careless about you guys” I admitted.
“Without you guys, my life is perfectly fine.” I said and walked out.
I went home after that and since it was Friday, I just skipped out on studying and went to bed. The next morning I cleaned the house. Somehow I found myself, sitting on the front steps of our porch looking at the evening sky. My single mom was at work and my brother was with my dad fishing. I found myself thinking about Xavier. The way we met was unusual. Xavier was known to beat people up, and somehow I became his lab partner in the beginning of last year. This was also when I was still a cheer leader and Annie’s best friend. He was quiet and sullen, but the first thing he did when we were doing the lab, he cracked a joke and I laughed. Slowly we became friends, and it was me that saved him from fights. Finally when everything was ruined and I pushed everyone away and disappeared during the summer, it was Xavier that broke those walls and would make me smile and forget about the world for at least a moment a day. I always got him out of trouble and he always respected my need to study. But somehow every time I looked up from, he was there smiling. He was always in high spirits. Then he started owning a weasel and sneaked him in class and I had to always save him when he got caught. But that weasel named Ralphie (to rhyme with Sophie) was like our momentum. Life without him would be hard. Before I knew it I was crying at how life was so exhausting.
I looked up and saw a breathless Xavier infront of me. He was wearing a hoodie and shorts. He brushed his hand along his messy hair and grinned. I looked and him and blushed.
“What are you doing here?”I asked.
“Because I’m worried..I gave you a day to cool down…I think that’s enough right?” He told me before he plopped himself beside me.
I sighed and nodded.
He snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me towards him. I widened my eyes and tried pulling away from him.
“What the hell are you doing?” I cried.
“What do you think I’m doing? I’m trying to be closer to you” he yelled back.
“Because I love you” he answered. I looked at him and stopped breathing. He looked at me and smirked and leaned back.
“Why are you telling me this now?” I questioned.
“Because I can’t help it anymore.” he admitted.
I looked at him cover his face with his hands. I gently pushed away his hand and caressed his face and he raised his eyebrows.
“You know you never changed? even though your life changed, you were always the same just a bit more proud of yourself each day. You studied like crazy all the time, you never cared what people said. The reason why I liked you was because you were one of the only people that didn’t look at me with fear or resentment. You didn’t leave me” Xavier whispered. I closed my eyes and whispered, “I love you too” back. I felt Xavier’s hand around my waist and he pushed me towards him. I felt his lips against mine. My heart beat fast but I kissed back. My arms went around his neck and Xavier kissed me harder. I knew that no matter how life changed, it goes on and you find better people to live with. We finally let go and Xavier twirled a piece of my hair around his finger.
“Vctoria is going to get crazy when we tell her about us” Xavier informed me. I laughed.
Xavier put his head on my shoulder and told me the story of how him and Haine got into a fight. Apparently Haine had thought Xavier got his answers by looking at previous tests of his brother’s, but little did Haine know, Xavier was just that smart and his brother never went to this school. I rolled my eyes. The night fell and I looked at Xavier and he looked at me and yelled to the world he loved me and just like every other time when he got in trouble, I took his hand and hid behind the tree in our front yard so my neighbour wouldn’t see who yelled. Xavier laughed and I kissed him to shut up, he held my waist and kissed me passionately.